My fatness has mostly been a part of my entire adult life. The fat shield that made me feel like a bull in a china shop also surprisingly made me invisible. It's true what fat people say about being treated differently and ignored. It's the last acceptable discrimination. Even The Biggest Loser TV show that exposes the raw emotions fat people have endured hasn't lightened the discrimination. It's there. I hate it.
I've blogged before and then became so sick of my own failures and the scale behaving like a rollercoaster that I deleted my blog. I also didn't like that my very techy niece managed to find it and divulged my innermost thoughts about food porn to the rest of my family. I noticed that my posts became censored because I wasn't sure if a coworker or family member would be reading. How can I possibly be open and honest about my struggles with food and dieting if I need to edit what I post?Which leads me to this new blog. My name isn't Jeannie. It's the actress's name of one of my favorite movies. At the time the movie was released *I* was her character in almost every way except for her career and wicked violin skills.
My husband Ryan married me fat. I hate all of my wedding photos where I'm pictured. He supported me through the last liquid fast where I lost a significant amount of weight. I gained more than half back and feel like a bloated pig. We don't have human children, but do have the four-legged barky barks. I work in the healthcare industry. Do you know how many references are made to obesity, diabetes, hypertension at any given lecture or meeting I attend? I instantly feel all eyes have turned in my direction. This is the reason I do NOT eat at any meeting. I don't want others critiquing what's on my plate.
I'm doing this blog for anyone considering Optifast. I'll be brutally honest about MY experience with the program. Because I've been successful with another fasting product I feel I have something to compare to Optifast and its program.
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